This is long but I really need someone to tell me?

Oh goodness sweetie. I feel your pain. I went through the same thing with my dad. Mental, emotional and physical abuse. He didnt want me to marry my husband. Even tried to have him arrested! He told my family that it would never last and that hed be proven right. I didnt talk to my father for a year after we got married. And our relationship was still rocky. I had to call cps on him which only made things worse. He claimed he didnt remember his abuse and that my siblings and I had been brainwashed. He hated my relationship with my mother. It took my father 5 years to realize that my husband was a good man. He loves me and takes care of me and our kids. We all make mistakes. Your dad should be the one to reach out, grow up, and start making amends with you. Its not your job to make him love you, or care. I know how it feels to not think you will ever make him happy. He is unhappy with himself, and making you feel bad in return. It isnt fair. I think it is a very wise choice to stop contact with him. And maybe in time he will realize what he has done. you can email me if you need someone to talk to. luvmygirl_bri@yahoo.com. your life sounds like a soap opera like mine. lol. Its time for you to take care of yourself and not worry bout what he thinks. You sound like an amazing woman and he should be proud! I hope he realizes it before its too late. But it will be his fault, not yours sweetie. I wish you all the best.